This is what aging feels like.
In the beginning, time feels limitless like a recently purchased container of ground cinnamon from the farmer’s market. Day after day you add just a pinch of the spice to your morning coffee or to the rare batch of French toast and it seems to make no impact at all on the remaining quantity. You think, “I’ll never use this all up!” You think, “This has got to be one of the best bargains around. $1.18 for five ounces and it’s going to last forever!” Days go by, then weeks, then months and still no visible change. You quit thinking about it all together, having decided that it is unlikely that you will ever have to purchase another container of ground cinnamon ever again. But then it happens. One day you are startled to notice that the container is, in fact, slightly less full than it was just yesterday. “Maybe it’s my eyes,” you think at first. So you look again. But no, there is clearly a little more container and a little less cinnamon visible now. And then a quirky phenomenon happens. Whereas it has taken an interminable amount of time to notice just a slight difference, now that you’ve noticed a change, the cinnamon starts vanishing at an alarming rate. What the f*** is going on here? (And you’re a nice Jewish girl from Brooklyn who doesn’t curse all that much.) You think, “Clearly the laws of physics must be involved some how,” though you know next to nothing about physics though you do like the occasional sci-fi or fantasy film. You begin to wonder, “Does this have something to do with the time/space continuum?” And then, more to the point, “Is time actually speeding up?” You can’t help but notice the note of desperation in your voice when you pose the next questions which is, “Is there a way to slow down this process?” You begin to feel overwhelmed with feelings of anger and betrayal. Maybe even a little bit of panic. Being human, you decide you need a scapegoat, someone or something you can blame for this distressing situation. You look around for possible candidates and settle on Einstein.