The beginning…

So the name of this blog is a misnomer since I’m actually “almost 62” but I chose the name “almostsixty” because that’s how old I was when I began this journey. Two  years and two months ago I was sitting in a breakout session of a work-related conference in San Diego and I was having an existential crisis. I was feeling terribly alone and disconnected despite being at the convention with over 5,000 other people. It was the one and only time in my entire life when I found myself thinking “Ok, just in case there is a God, I’m turning things over to You because I’m clueless how to make myself feel better.”

In addition to this loneliness that I was feeling was the looming approach of my 60th birthday. For the first time (all these terrible firsts!) I thought, “Oh my God, I’m old!” and I HATED it. I can’t articulate how much I hated the idea of turning 60. When I delved deeper, I had to face the fact that I was not liking the life that I was leading – it was an unfinished, pale life and I was terribly disappointed in myself.

So when I got back to Atlanta I started to take action. First I went back into therapy, something I’d done before but not for quite some time. Then I joined a gym (primarily to control my high blood pressure) and got talked into working with a trainer. That was two years ago…

Much to my surprise, it turns out that I love working out, something I now do 4-5 times a week. Becoming strong and fit has changed how I feel about myself. Feeling better has given me the impetus to look closely at other areas of my life such as making the decision to leave a job I’ve had for 17 years with no clear plan for what comes next (gulp!) I definitely have issues with food, and have recently acknowledged that I need one-on-one help to tackle this particular challenge once and for all, something I am poised to begin doing.

I’m not the same person I was two years and two months ago. I’m thinner, fitter, and happier. But I’m not done. I’m determined to reinvent myself and my life, to age well. I want to get to a place where I no longer hate being whatever age I happen to be because I’m living the life I want, in all its colors. That journey is what this blog will be about.

 

 

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4 Responses to The beginning…

  1. Kimberly Clarke says:

    Go girl! So proud of you.

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  2. Thanks so much for your encouragement and support Kimberly!

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  3. bargainali says:

    I love that you think of yourself as a mosaic. Really interesting… You are a beautiful soul. I loved reading this and supporting your journey. May all good things be in your future as you deserve only the best. I spend every Thursday with a group of women in their 70’s. We all have stuff but honestly most days I relate to them better than my peers. Age is definitely just a number.

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  4. Thanks so much for your support Ali! In many ways I agree with you about age being just a number. But the finality of life does become realer as you get older as does the possibility of illness and frailty. But I’ve decided to use these fears for good and not for evil! Would love to hear about your Thursday group sometime!

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